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Silent Sunday

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Anxiety Depression and Me

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After I had my third child something just wasn't right. I wasn't really bonding with him and felt down pretty much every day but didn't acknowledge any of these feelings. I was fortunate enough to have a really amazing midwife called Mary who spotted the tell tale signs of postnatal depression and was quick to alert my husband and offer him advice and support on how best to support and help me. I had a great support network in my parents, sister, husband and a few friends which really helped me face up to my feelings and get the necessary help.  Nine years ago, depression was something that was still pretty much a taboo subject to talk about, so I didn't. I got the help I needed and got on with everything that a mother has to. I did start to feel better and started bonding with my little boy but it took four months. A whole four months before I WANTED  to cuddle my baby rather than HAVING to cuddle him to soothe him. Things got back to 'NORMAL ' and I carri

Please Look After My Baby

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Please look after my baby She’s the last I’ll ever have I know that she’ll have good days But I know she’ll have some bad And when I can’t be there To give her some tlc Please just let her know She’ll get mummy cuddles after three I know she seems quite grown Like she can handle being there With her grown up smart new dress And her very fancy hair But when she first falls over Or can’t make sense of it all She’ll probably cry and sob and sob And you’ll see she’s still so small I know I’ve done this all before With girl then boy and boy But Sofia is our rainbow baby And brought us so much joy So when you see me tearing up As I wave my little girl goodbye Just say it’s ok as she walks away And I go home to cry. Emma xoxo

What’s It All About Then?

About 10 years ago I started blogging. I wanted to document my journey as a work from home mum of 2. Back then, blogging and vlogging wasn’t as big as it has become but nevertheless I wanted a place where I could vent and look back on where I had been and where I was now. It started off well but then I felt I lost my way a little, with the explosion of blogging, Facebook, Instagram and YouTube I started feeling that everyone out there had more interesting things to say, nicer holidays to snap, more beautiful homes to show and just generally better lives to document. I would compare my minute follower numbers to their rapidly growing numbers and felt that my posts were irrelevant and not up to scratch so changed my writing style and content to try and ‘fit in’ but because none of this interested me I lost interest in my writing and my blog pretty much fell by the wayside. A little while back I was scrolling through Instagram and come to the realisation that a lot of the accou

Playground Politics

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For many, the school run is one of the most hated parts of the school year. Not because every morning without fail you’ll be screaming at your kids to get their shoes on and you’re already late or because you’ve picked them up and forgot to bring the all important snack, but because you stress about finding your place in it all. My daughter starting nursery at our local school isn’t all new to me, her three siblings before her have all been there so you you could say that I’m part of the furniture as I embark on my 14th year of school runs at this school, yes that’s right FOURTEEN years and without a break in between! I remember my first week of school runs, getting to  know the other parents, seeing how my daughters friendship groups were working and finding my feet but one thing that stuck out was how ‘cliquey’ some of the mums were. Despite being quite a chatty and friendly person it seemed really hard to ‘break into’ these mummy circles and not feeling accepted woul

Silent Sunday

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#silentsunday

And Just Like That She's Off

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For the past three years I’ve had a constant shadow. That shadow goes by the name of Sofia. There have been days where I have wanted to lock myself in the bathroom just to have five minutes peace and maybe have a sneaky biscuit without having to share it but there have also been days where she makes my heart melt with her cuddles and kisses and has me in fits of laughter with her cheeky comments. One thing that has become apparent to anyone who knows us is that she definitely is my little sidekick but our days of it just being the two of us are numbered. My mini me is heading off to pre-school in a week and it’s got me rather emotional.  I don’t remember feeling this way when the others headed off to pre-school/nursery and I wonder is it because she is the last and I know that as much as there will be lots of new firsts there will also be lots of lasts? Next week she’ll start the settling in process and providing all goes well Sofia will be leaving me for three days a week from 9a

Back to School Survival Essentials

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With back to school well underway and the uniform, stationary and shoe shopping finally completed, I thought I’d share with you my top ten essential items I try to make sure we’re stocked up on now the kids are back at school so we are ready for the inevitable. Plasters Need I say any more. Starting from the 16 year old all the way down to the 3 year old, there is always some cut, scrape or bang that requires a plaster. Packs of tissues I always try and chuck a pack of tissues or handy wipes in the kids bags as they always come in handy for SOMETHING especially snotty noses in the winter months. Stationary I always keep a secret stash of stationary. Without doubt my bigger two always lose their writing pens so I don’t rush out and spend like £2.50 on a single pen in the newsagent, I simply produce one with a smug smile from my secret place(not THAT  secret place either ya dirty buggers) My stationary stash always comes in handy for homework projects or handwriting practice

Our Summer Review

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Before the Summer holidays we all sat around the dinner table and between us compiled a list of the activities, days out, short breaks and things that we'd like to do during Summer and we called it our Summer Bucket List . Armed with the list, Sharpies, post it notes and a large sheet of card I set about planning out our Summer. We didn't manage to tick everything off of our bucket list but in fairness some of my additions were a little ambitious given the time constraints and the kids are quite happy to roll some of the activities over to the upcoming weekends and October half term but here are the highlights of our Summer. We had AMAZING  GCSE results from Mikhayla  We had a fab afternoon at our newly discovered local indoor Plonk Crazy Golf I didn't win, but to be fair I didn't lose either! Result  A certain little lady had her feet measured and bought her first ever pair of school shoes ready to start nursery later this month. We spent

Self Care is Not Selfish

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For many years no matter how tired or run down I was, I carried on. I'd need the loo;hold it, need a drink;it would wait, nails in desperate need of a manicure;oh well and it went on like this for ages. I always maintained that it didn't matter what my emotional, physical or mental needs were as long as the kids were happy and healthy then that was all that mattered. After all, they didn't ask to be born did they? So it was my duty to make sure they always came first. Then BAM , I became very poorly and couldn't do very much at all and literally everything in the house went to pot. The dirty laundry pile got out of control, dinners became chicken nuggets and chips daily, our home looked like a tip and generally everything just fell apart. To be fair, I have to take the blame for a lot of this because everyone is so used to me doing absolutely everything and refusing help that when I'm unable to do anything nobody has a clue what to do. It was during that bout o