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Tuesday, September 15, 2020

Am I Enough?

The last 6 months have been interesting to say the least. The impact of what we have been through has not just physically taken it’s toll on so many of us, it has also left a vast majority of us mentally scarred too.

After months of homeschooling, trying to keep on top of my own work, housework and everything else I have had to juggle, the whole experience left me questioning or rather doubting my abilities. Am I a good enough parent? Am I being a supportive enough wife? Have I been there for my friends? The list went on.

Recently I started reading a book called How To Stop Feeling Like Sh*t. Every chapter involves a challenge where you are asked to look at different areas of your life and really take stock of how you feel about and treat yourself and I realised that I wouldn’t treat others how I treat myself. It’s only really the last couple of weeks that I’ve actually stepped back, taken stock of everything and wholeheartedly challenged the self doubt and my reasons behind it and do you know what, I’ve come to realise that I AM ENOUGH. I give my all, I love with all my heart and I learn from my mistakes.

A perfect example of doubting myself or feeling inadequate is this week on Instagram I made a reel and very nearly didn’t post it. Here’s why, I am rarely in a picture as I will duck and dive to avoid them where possible but when I do take a picture I won’t usually upload them anywhere because I am constantly picking at everything wrong with me in the picture. I’ll criticise my photography skills and video editing skills and deem things just not good enough but on Monday I posted the video because despite me not being 100% happy with it I was happy enough with ME and that is a huge amount of progress.

It’s so easy to get caught up with life and forget about ourselves particularly with everything that we’ve had going on in the world lately but when was the last time you stopped and thought about what you need, how you’re feeling and how you’re doing?

We are always making time for everything and anything else so with things settling into a ‘new normal’, maybe now is the time to look at your mental health and well-being, set some time aside for you and just make sure that you are ok.

Emma xoxo

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